There are many point of views in this world, but from that ‘many’ point of views thing, I guess there’s just one explanation for what I feel right now, right here, in this very second. Guess what ? I think I’m the edge of madnessess, having butterflies effect in my stomach, having the weird dream when I go to bed, and beginning to think the worst case of what’s going on. What’s going on ? Well, let’s say, it’s kinda the final of something and the other beginning of something. Don’t ask me. I’m just trying express my feeling.
Well, I don’t know why I write this except the fact that I need to do something to calm myself. Because the only activity calming myself right now is writing though my writing begin feel like a mess. You don’t even know what I’m writing about, rite ? That’s the worst an author can do. And I’m deeply sorry, I can’t find the right word to describe my feeling right now. But I’m pretty sure I’m gonna laugh when I re-read this next time.
Against all odds, I’m beginning feel something. Madness, after all ?
Depok, 6th January 2014