Some pretty weeks ago, I went to karaoke with some friends. When I got there, I just realized that I need more and more time to think what song I would like to sang. Well, you know, when I was younger than now, going to karaoke bar and sing whatever song that just pop up in my head was easy to do (now I evenĀ have to look at my phone to find those songs!). Those songs were there, in the back of my head, ready whenever I wanna sang them, but I don’t know why, even the simpliest thing became pretty hard for me this time.
Okay, I don’t wanna write a lot about song that getting harder to find. That is just a simple example about what’s going on in my life right now. I don’t know, I just feel that I’m pretty messy right now, you know, about decision and all-of-future-stuff. It’s just me or you also feel like me ?
The simple thing becomes hard, the familiar becomes unfamiliar, the thing you love the most becomes something else, there’s more and more happen in my mind (like my head becomes ticking bomb), and I’m feeling uneasy about my own self.
I just don’t wanna turn in the wrong path, you know, about something i have to do, and what I wanna do. Honestly i just can’t bear the feeling of regret. The thing I should do but I shouldn’t …
Well, guess I’m given this in my some times, so I’m pretty sure about it. Funny when you think something more and more, it becomes more complicated.
So, do you wanna sing a song ?
Sragen, 28 Agustus 2014